I did it!!!

[lovedogs51511]

I actually fought my massive anxiety and went for a 15 minute walk. Plus I rode my scooter/motorcycle for half hour. I felt totally embarrassed but,I just kept saying over and over I deserve to be out here just like everyone else!!! Kinda worked but was still feeling anxiety really bad. I just got sick of hiding in my condo. I think that's what helped. Love you all hope you all had a beautiful day. God bless🙏💝😀😎

[metalminded]

That's great Kacey!! I'm proud of you! I think that's exactly what we all have to say. Screw it, I'm going out (or replace with your anxiety) and I don't care what anyone else thinks! Awesome girl!!

[lovedogs51511 in reply to metalminded]

Your so funny. Yeah I just got sick of hiding at home I guess. Its really hard cause I don't like to be seen but riding that thing is tough. I'm out in the open unlike a car but that's all I have to get around!!! How ya doing?

[metalminded in reply to lovedogs51511]

Thanks! LOL. I can only imagine what that must feel like. As much as there are times I enjoy staying home and doing stuff inside and away from everyone (though I'm rarely ever home alone). I'm glad you decided you had enough indoors. You can spend plenty of time during the winter inside! Enjoy the summer weather.

[lovedogs51511 in reply to metalminded]

Lol like you said there's plenty of time in the winter to stay inside. Ill be retrained for certified nursing asst by then and possibly working part time. Hopefully!!! Very scared about doing that!!! Must be tough when you want time alone but family is also there. Family is important tho. They love you Leigh. That's why I love living alone. Never wanted to be married or have kids. Not with the possibilty of passing on the depression, bipolar and alcoholism etc. Not after suffering it for so long.

[metalminded in reply to lovedogs51511]

I'm glad you are going to be working, that's a great profession, I think I've said that before. I know as a CNA you are stuck with more of the dirty jobs, but at the end of the day, you're helping others. That, hopefully, will give you the courage to take a job.

Yes, very tough! I love them too, and it's nice to have someone around, but being single for so many years (33) I had a lot of alone time, and now I miss it. I especially miss being able to chill and listen to music, my stereo is in the living room, so hard to kick everyone out. LOL

[lovedogs51511 in reply to metalminded]

Good morning Leigh!!! Yes CNA is the dirty job lol but helping them brings joy and happiness cause they are such a kind generation.Just the thought of going thru the classes is scaring me soooo bad.I have to cause I can't afford to live on only $850 a month. Part time work will be ideal. I would think you could turn on the stereo and play music. Put on some headphones maybe that would be better. Sing your little heart out. Lol. Being alone gets old but I don't mind it overall. I just have a hard time cause I don't have a dog. I will try and see if I,get an emotional support dog so they would have to let me get one. Praying it will happen. Hugs my friend. Have a wonderful day!!!

[metalminded in reply to lovedogs51511]

Will you be working with geriatric patients?

$850/month is shameful of our government! People in the "greatest country in the world" deserve more help, we have so many riches this shouldn't be an issue, especially for elderly!

I hope you will be able to get a service dog, I know from talking with you how much they mean to you!!

Thank you Kacey, you too!!!

[lovedogs51511 in reply to metalminded]

Yes I've loved the elderly my whole life. Wonderful generation!!! I agree they deserve only the best!! Best care, lots of love and help when needed. Yeah 850 is terrible but I'm allowed to make another 850 to be able to live and survive on which isn't much. Every time I think about working full time I end up having a seizure or something else that could cause me to lose my job. Then I'd be homeless. Just scares me to get off disability. I sure hope your right about getting a dog. That's the one thing I desperately want!!! Then life would be complete!!! Have a best friend again. Lost my girl Cheyenne 9 years ago on memorial day. Not a good day for me. I was so attached to her. I so loved to spoil her💝😀💝 We did everything together. Sorry I'm rambling again lol. Hope you had a wonderful day Leigh.

[Hidden]

Brilliant news! So pleased for you.

Well done 🌺🌼🌺🌼🌺🌼. X

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you I just had to do it. II was tired of sitting inside. St. George Utah is a place to be seen not hide from. Its beyond beautiful out here. Don't want to miss out on life!! How are you???

[Hidden in reply to lovedogs51511]

Good for you!

It does sound so nice there.

I’m ok I guess, still battling on, gonna keep trying.

Therapy today , later on. 😞

Take care 🌺 x

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Love the scooter! How lovely to be able to get around on that...😁

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Hidden]

Its really fun cause it can go 60 mph easy. My last scooter in Vegas only went 35 to 40 max. Pretty hard to do is massive traffic!! Lol. Just glad I never had a seizure riding it. Had seizure driving car due to missing meds. Lost license and car😭😭 This ones much more fun.

[Hidden in reply to lovedogs51511]

It sounds fab. 😃🌻 x

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Hidden]

Yeah its much easier to ride a faster one here in a smaller city for sure. Many more hills here. Very embarrassed riding it cause its hard riding walking outdoors ten minutes but getting out there on that took a lot of energy. I just kept saying over and over you can do this. Omg I was terrified!!! How are you this morning?

[Hidden in reply to lovedogs51511]

I would have been the same as you, but so chuffed I had done it...it’s such a good thing 💕

My mind is in overdrive about having therapy, I don’t enjoy it really but hey ho..

Have a great day xx

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Hidden]

In my prayers that,it goes good today! You can do this. I know its tough but I'm here for ya anytime!!! Have a great day too

[Hidden in reply to lovedogs51511]

Thank you 🌹🌹🌹

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Hidden]

Hope your therapy goes great! That's what I'm trying to do is keep trying. I think that's all we can do. Your in my prayers Olivia!! Thanks for being a great friend!! Take care also. God bless🙏💝😀😊

[Hidden in reply to lovedogs51511]

Thank you so much.

Appreciate your support.

Your amazing 😊 xx

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Hidden]

Absolutely.

[Tryinghardto]

I needed to see this thank you for sharing the light 💙

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Tryinghardto]

Sure. How are you doing??

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Tryinghardto]

Anytime you need a friend I'm always here! Hope you have a blessed day!