Slipped up

[sav_11]

I have gone five months with only about four anxiety attacks and just had another small one. I said something that offended a friend and it’s started a conflict and I don’t do well with conflict at all. It made me realize that I have a few people in my life that I keep around to avoid conflict if I distanced myself. I wish conflict didn’t paralyze me so much but everytime my friends get mad at me I immediately apologize and go into grovel mode to avoid conflict. I’m not sure how to be brave enough to face conflict because it usually causes an attack.

[Jamie5]

I have the exact same issue. My friends always tell me I need to learn to stand up for myself but when I try I get anxiety attacks and I really hate them so I decide to just deal with it when people treat me poorly or do something I am against instead of starting anything up.