Completely lost

[Kenny426]

Hi everyone. I have been struggling with anxiety for over 6 years. I am on medication for depression and have anxiety meds but I don’t want to abuse them and get addicted. I feel completely lost. I have no one to talk to. All of my “friends” are too busy and my parents don’t listen to me. Everyone is so quick to either ignore me or put me down. I am a guitarist in a band and I go to school for computers. I’m almost 22 and I wake up every morning disgusted with myself. Disgusted with who I’ve been in the past and who I am today. Only to look forward to who I might become. I work at a flower shop which is very draining. Emotionally and physically. When ever I finally get home all I want to do is go to sleep and hope that I don’t wake up. I was doing so good for a while but now I feel like my mind is back in the dumps. I’ve been to all sorts of doctors to help me but nothing seems to work. I just want to move somewhere far away and start over. But it doesn’t seem that I have the ability to really do that right now. I’m sorry if this was the wrong place to post this. I just wanted to get some input from others because I am really lost.

[roseanxiety]

You are not in the wrong place, you are in the perfect place here. Do you have any friends in your band that you can talk to? Believe it or not, anxiety is very common, they say 1 in 3 people you see have dealt or are dealing with an anxiety problem. It would be helpful if you could find someone around you to help talk to you about it.

As far as the anxiety medication, they have a lot of natural supplements that really do help and are not addictive. Definitely talk to your doctor first or do some research, but Magnesium citrate, valerian root, 5-HTP all help calm our minds and bodies. Also, drinking chamomile tea. Hope this helps in some way, you are not alone! Everyone on this site is struggling with something very similar to you, do not lose hope You have a bright future ahead of you as you are only 21. I am 21 too.

I know its hard, but you can do it. Once we beat this anxiety, we will be all the more stronger because of what we've been through.

[Kenny426]

Thank you for the kind words. I don’t have many real friends outside the band. The band were at one point my closest. Now it seems like no one cares. I’ve voiced my opinion several times but I can never get through to them. I remember at one point in my life I had so many dreams. Now I don’t have any. I have no motivation to do anything. I have a hard time fitting in with groups of people and I easily get upset. The only way out that would be beneficial from my point of view is just to move away and never turn back.

[roseanxiety in reply to Kenny426]

That might feel like the only solution, but anxiety will follow you anywhere. There are bad friends in every part of the world, so i don't know if moving would solve your problem. Try to join more clubs, or join a gym, go to a new coffee shop. try to meet new people, there are good people out there...it just takes effort to find them. We are all here online for you here, of course.

[Davidatp]

Hey Kenny, anxiety is very draining. When I went through cancer treatment and then COPD and anxiety I thought the same thing about becoming addicted. As long as you follow what the doctors tell you, you will be ok. They only give you what you need. God bless and good luck. Hang in there.

David

[Dorsey]

Hi Kenny sorry your going through this too. I have suffered most of my life just doesn't seem to be any end too it. I can't take meds make me worse i find drinking a lot of water helps me plus i take anxiolife which helps. But i still suffer debilitating symptoms. Not very pleasant wish you all the best.

[Lymeforyears]

Hi Kenny,. I am close to 50 but was where u are now years ago. I actually had the opportunity to move away and start all over and it only lasted for awhile. I like that u did say u can look forward to who u might become. Think about that and write on a piece of paper how u would really like to be in the future. Then that can be a goal. I was never really close with my parents and never really had a lot of freinds. We do have to put some time into making and keeping freinds and it's probably better to talk to a good therapist then our freinds for our problems unless we know that we can completely trust them. You will know if u can trust them and if u can't just keep working on yourself until you make new and more understanding freinds. You said u did good for awhile and are now down in the dumps. That is totally how life is Kenny. It's okay to feel that way and so normal for people with anxiety etc. . We just have to learn to accept it but keep moving and that takes time. Don't be hard on yourself your still so young. Is there anything your passionate about whether it's tv shows, your faith and if no faith your interests in volunteering somewhere you may like like animal shelters or nursing homes?? Some people like animals but some don't. I get out for daily walks with mine and it's good for social skills etc. even just having short conversations with people at the flower shop is so good. You have no idea how much making others feel good will help u feel good. You would be surprised how many people u see are completely alone as well. Well, I've really went on and on haven't I lol. I'm hoping for good things for u and just want to let u know your not alone. Oh by the way I am a cna who works with Alzheimer's, Parkinson's, and cancer patients who are mostly in hospice so I see a lot of loneliness 💛💛