Really need your help please.

[chuck23]

To start, i have had a big phobia around psychosis and paranoia for 2 years now. I clearly have an anxiety disorder, but i don't know which one. I have had dp/dr, panic attacks and obsessional thinking about the possibility of being psychotic (like my aunt). Lately, i feel like i am becoming paranoid because i have had some paranoid thoughts that freaked me out.

For exemple, yesterday night, i was with my gf and i were watching a movie that takes place in am mental hospital and the girl was paranoid herself. After the movie, my gf went upstairs to get me a glass of water and i immediately thought; "what if she put something in it?!" I started panicking and thinking "why tf did i thought of that, i know that she wouldn't do something like that it's so paranoid to think." I drank it to convince myself it was just anxiety, but it felt awkward. I was so scared for no good reason.

An other exemple would be when i was driving 2 weeks ago. A car was behind me and i thought "what if this guy is following me?". I started panicking instantly. I didn't knew if it was because i thought that he was following me or because i was scared of being paranoid but i was not feeling good at all. I wanted to pull over just to put an end to this situation, but i stayed strong and the guy went away after following me for like 5 minutes. Today i know that all of this was so wrong and i don't know why it happened. I am so scared of being psychotic like my aunt, it haunts me everyday... I have thoughts like that every once in a while and it really bothers me.

I need your opinion and sorry for my english, i mainly speak french.

Have a good day.

[Jeff1943]

Chuck23, I'm not a psychiatrist but you don't sound paranoid or psychotic to me. A bit obsessive maybe but just because your aunt is psychotic doesn't mean you are.

I think you are experiencing anxiety disorder and this includes having strange thoughts like your girl friend putting something in your water (which you immediately realised was nonsense) and the guy following your car.

Chuck 23, we are allowed to have strange thoughts: they are harmless. Just accept them, let them run their course. They only become a problem if you generate lots of fear hormones stressing about them which causes more anxiety. So simply accept them for the moment. Accept all the symptoms of anxiety disorder that come your way. Learn to co-exist with them for the time being. You will soon lose your fear of them and your nerves will recover.

Fear is the real enemy yet the funny thing is we don't have anything real to fear.

[DeeM3]

When you have a true psychological disorder, say schizophrenia for example, where you are paranoid, you won’t realize it. You won’t analyze it. You won’t know you are doing it. I’ve been around quite a few in this state and they never stop to rationalize their thoughts. You are ok

[Kit1014]

Dibs ; disputing irrational beliefs

Its anxiety your dealing with kn a very high level which if. Not properly being handled can escalate. However the dibs I put out there is somewhat how u rethinking the fact of your gf putting soemthing in your drinks.

Only you go Moreno debt jsut even in your head you way out pros and cons for both sides of the situtaation. You look at the past and the future and then the now. And you'll be fine in under 15minute

Also remember if your anxiety turns into a panic attack just keep yelling yourself no matter what. A panic attack won't last over 25 minutes so if u can make it thru 25 minutes you will be fine. Take one day at a time.

[Jmerrick22]

Dude, you are me literally a few months ago. Like I would read online about people who committed suicide and I'd be paranoid oh my god what if I snap and try it, or I have a cousin who is schizophrenic, what if I get that way and lose my mind, or omg someone was stabbed in another state, I'd wanna take all the knives out of the house etc. usually when there's times of high anxiety that's what makes the paranoia kick in , trust me you'll be fine and work through it. Your overthinking that is all, try relaxing and relaxation techniques, such as deep breathing etc. I know what you mean about the car thing following you, when I'm driving and say a cop is behind me I'm so paranoid and nervous like omg what's going on they're following me did I do something wrong etc . It's all the anxiety and over thinking. The key is to basically try and think of

Other things or distract yourself from the thoughts. Anxiety is a part of negative thinking, we need to try and make a positive out of the negative. Trust me your not alone, if you ever need someone to talk to message me . have a good day