I have suffered depression and acute anxiety for many years and self medicated on top of prescription diazapam and other anti depressants !! I stopped the diazapam and self medicating , seven months ago and every day I struggle with the feeling of utter dread and I thought it would be getting easier by now but each day that passes I don't seem to be getting anywhere and thinking of going back to the diazapam to try and get rid of the feeling of destitution!! Do I plough on or succomb to what seems the inevitable!! Is there hope or a higher power to help me ??