Am I the only one that feels this???

[Hateanxiety]

Hi everyone,as you all know I have a choking phobia, anxiety disorder,panic attacks,and GERD. Most of you know that I've had problems with feeling like my throat is tight and so on that makes me scared that I will choke when I eat. Lately I feel like I have something in my chest that I can't cough up but then again I'm just get over the flu like 5 days ago if that,so I don't know. I'm going to a GI doctor Tuesday to hopefully get some reassurance that my throat and everything is fine or if I need anything fixed then he can do it. I'm not gonna lie,I'm scared because I want so badly to go in and get fixed or told I'm good but in my mind I know either way I will still have the choking phobia mentally. That makes me so afraid because I don't know how to fix it completely,ill gave days that are not so bad and days that are a living hell. I'm a aware no one can take the fear of choking from me except me but the problem is I don't know how to take it from myself either. Lately I have just be so angry and crying because I had a great life since I met my husband and had my children until 5 months ago when everything started with laying down to sleep with a sudden feeling as if I couldn't breathe and was dying. But what makes me so sad and angry is that I don't understand what happen to change my life so completely,what brought it all on and now I don't know how to stop it,I keep feeling like I did something that I'm being punished for. No I wasn't the best person in life,I hurt people that didn't really deserve it,I suppose I didn't spent as much time with my children as I should have,wasn't the best wife I could have been. But if I am being punished I don't see how any of that is worth this. I will say I'm a different person now,but nothing gets any better.

[Lostjoy]

Hello, what you are experiencing with choking sounds very scary. I’m sorry you are having to suffer with this type of anxiety if that’s what it is.

I hope you can find some answers from your GI on Tuesday.

Best wishes for you to feel better.