How do you stop the bad thoughts you get? I was diagnosed with GAD and depression recently - although I’ve known for years previous. I’ve been given anti depressants (sertraline 50mg) but the first lot (citalopram 20mg) made me really ill and I’m too scared to take the news ones. I also don’t want to become dependant on them.
But, my suicidal thoughts are getting so much more often and once I start crying I literally can’t stop. I’ll cry for HOURS. I’ve got an extremely puffy face today from crying last night and now don’t want to leave the house because it looks like I’ve been beaten up, without the bruising.
I know I won’t actually carry out the thoughts I have but they’re there more often than they were and I really don’t know how to cope with them.
My relationship is collapsing because of my constant low mood or snappy, paranoid behaviour
My dad also has cancer and is refusing treatment which is another massive weight that I just don’t know how to process.
Both issues just adding to the weight I’m carrying and struggling with.
I feel very stuck.
Any help would really be appreciated.