I went back to work today and as soon as got there i just fell apart. Maybe i'm not ready but its just not as easy as that? As the day went on i felt better and even had a few laughs with my collegues. But now i'm home i just keep counting down the hours that i have to go back there and maybe feel the way i did this morning...
Anyways i come home from work and im exhausted physically, mentally etc... so i fall asleep on the sofa and then i get woke up by the dog and my head is pounding! And pounding just a little bit more with every bark. So now i'm in a bad mood (another reason i took the nap was cos i had yet again another broken sleep/got woke up early cos of my partner rustling around or leaving his alarm going! I'm just so exhausted. I didn't eat my dinner cos the thought of eating made me feel physically sick. So my mum goes on at me why didnt i eat and i snapped at her and now i feel bad for that.
BAD F**KING DAY.
I just want to be alone in some comfy little room where i can just stay there forever.
I started to think that i was getting somewhere, this is so hard. I feel so alone.