Childhood traumas

I get uncomfortable when people are nice to me i get tense when i answer comments thinking do they genuinely care. After i got adopted it took years for my parents to be able to touch me. I'm 22 and yesterday they were having a bbq an aunt hugged me i thought i was having a seizure

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I was adopted age 13 trust is a big issue for me especially when it comes to adults in and out of foster care fo a good couple years if you need to chat feel free to PM me

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Me too i mean i know some adults are great folks buti can't help it. Im always questioning people's intentions

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Was adopted at 11 the only time they would hear my voice was screaming cause i use to have horrible nightmares. I was mute

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Yeah i wouldnt goto sleepcfor 2 weeks straight we ended up going to the doctors they said if i didnt sleep id go psychotic

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Falling asleep was my worst nightmare no adults wanted a kid with that much problems so i got passed around a lot. Are you better now though?

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Well im okay managing one day at a time really all we can do haha but i have severe anxiety when it comes to leaving my town as soon as i graduated highschool and became "adult" independent is my biggest fear since i was always sheltered from negativity so i really fear being on my own i guess ? Idk how to describe my fear

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Really hope you're doing ok Edward and still going to your sessions