Hi everyone, I'm new here and hoping I get some relief by talking to others like me.
Im a 26 year old woman who has suffered from anxiety since childhood. Since my mom died in 2015 it has gotten so much worse, my life is being ruined. I'm having a serious case of health anxiety. I check my body for lumps everyday, I Google and scare the daylights out of myself and I have panic attacks and cry. I have feared I have everything under the sun- breast cancer, IBS, hiv, brain tumors, Lyme disease, diabetes..the list goes on. I'm the past it wasn't this bad but its so much worse. I know the death of my mom has something to do with it. I've had a lot of changes in my life in the last 2 years (moved out of state, quit school, lost my job) and I'm sure its all tied in but I mostly think about my impending death. I have a fantastic boyfriend that I'm terrified I'll ruin his life by giving him a disease or just by pushing him away and screwing up! I want to stop googling because I waste hours on it and it makes everything worse. Can I get advice on how to stop checking my body and to stop googling? It's as if I'm a drug addict because I can't stop!