Am I going bipolar?

[Illboy]

I have these episodes when I start feeling anxious and the cycle goes on and on amd sometimes reaches such intense level that I nothing would calm me down . I get mental + physical symptoms. On other times , I am quite relaxed like nothing ever happened . I have been surfing on the net and found that most of these mood switches are related to bipolar . I dont have ANY family history of mental illnesses . The fact that I may be bipolar or some sort of mentally ill person . Im 16 years and , im really afraid if these illnesses will take over my life? I have read horrible stories of bipolar and its link to suicide . Its driving me ****ing insane , like I have something really bad waiting for me in near future . I dont have any psychatrists near by . Any suggestions?

[EGraceA]

Hi. I understand. I really do. Sometimes I do not know what is going on with me. When I feel like you do, I do my best to find a quiet area and ask myself questions...Why do I feel this way?, Who did I talk with last? (sometimes that could be the trigger), What was I doing when those feelings popped up?, What was I thinking last?, How is my body/head feeling?, etc. I have found it helpful to take notes on the answers until I can do it in my head. Are you able to Google for help in your area?

[Illboy in reply to EGraceA]

Yes

[EGraceA in reply to Illboy]

To your question about being bipolar... The professionals who have seen me in the ups and down moods, even from experts - their answers are indecisive. Some say bi-polar, others say MPD, and others don't know what to call it.