Feeling like a failure

[nmp1]

I feel like I've failed my parents for being scared and not feeling well because of anxiety. It makes me sad and disappointed in myself that I'm letting GAD ruin me and keep me from doing normal day to day things. I get people angry at me but thing is they don't know what I feel how scared I get. I know it sounds stupid but leaving the house is terrifying and there are days I go out because I have to. I'm starting to get on their last nerve. All I want to say is sorry, sorry for not being perfect sorry for having a mental illness and sorry for not living up to your dreams. And I'm sorry for myself for letting this bring me down. But have hope and pray to god for him to help me.

[Agora1]

nmp1, You are not a failure to anyone. You have nothing to be sorry for especially for not being perfect. who is?? If you are getting on everyone's nerves then that's their problem not yours. We don't choose having a mental illness just as people don't choose having Diabetes, Cancer etc. We have nobody's dreams to live up to but our own.

God can help you if you help yourself. Letting GAD ruin your life is a choice we all have to make in order to turn our lives around. This is your life. We will help you help yourself by learning methods and ways to combat anxiety by Acceptance. Accepting anxiety is the only way to rid yourself of this control it has over your life. It needn't be that way. Knowledge of what we were given in life is the best way to get back in control. Really understand what we are up against will help with accepting that this fear is not harmful. It is our mind playing this cruel trick on us. Allowing us to believe in what it's feeding us.

Get angry, it's only a feeling. It's a game by the Anxiety Bully. Games are meant to be won. You can win. I haven't looked over your last posts but have you read the Dr. Claire Weekes book on "Hope & Help for your Nerves" ? Read it, listen to it on CD. Hear every word she says.You will see yourself in all she says. She is very positive in her teachings. Many studies have been put into the practice of acceptance. The more you believe in it, the easier it becomes until a wave of fear may appear in your thoughts and leave as fast as it came by your believing it is not worth your time or energy. Don't fight it, accept it. Use other methods such as meditation & deep breathing. Anxiety is afraid of that. It loses it's strength as you get back control of body/mind again.

Most of all, NEVER apologize to anyone. You don't want it anymore than they do. My best x

[philly101]

Never put yourself down or blame yourself. The mind is a powerful place. If you're having trouble leaving the house, maybe try going for a walk for 15-20 min. Start small and work your way up. Exercising and eating healthy will help your mind and body. Its a process but believe in yourself and you can do it. Just stay positive!

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Hello. You've received two very good responses. Wondering as you seem to be living with your parents, how old are you, and why are you feeling you have let your parents down. What steps gave you taken to control your fear, as I don't know if you are under medical care at the moment. You are not the first person who never wanted to leave the house......but you can do it when ypu need to. Maybe finding some more pleasant reasons to leave your safe heaven could be a start.....the more we do things that may be really uncomfortable, but succeed in doing them, the more it becomes a habit. Godspeed to you in your efforts.