Sleep/Pain/Stress Trigger warning!

[Delzek]

I have been having bad times no sleep worrying about DWP even though I have done nothing wrong! Pain I thought would go after the injections ? It has not its blooming terrible ! muscle at the top of my neck is stiff and very painful as well, before I could call my pal and he would either sit and chat or play on the Ps4 , that would take my mind off of my situation,cant do that now! Pressed my Carelink Pendant again just to make sure it still works ! Terrified I have an episode and the pendant wont work and I wont be able to get any help! my neighbour now comes upstairs or calls me to see how I am,but my Pal does not even answer his mobile when I call him! I honestly dont know how much more of this I can take ,I take one step forward and am forced back ten! what a life! Why are people so malicious? Evil? I cant leave my flat door open any more yet I used to leave it wide open day and night! I leave "You Tube on the tv for the Parrots so they can see Parrot videos and I go lay down in the bedroom with the blackout blind down just to keep cool and so not to upset the Parrots ! they know when you are sad or not in a good place ! my Bourkes PArrot tries to give me monkey nuts and the Rossaela just sings or shouts at me ! I have more trust in my two little Parrot friends than I do in humans now! I feel my life is just so messed up ! yet I wont give up ,I have to try to be "Normal?" whatever that is