So yesterday I had a break through. I have known my constant negative fears and worries are irrational, but I still can't stop the negative thoughts. I have mild agoraphobia because of panic attacks, and have a fear of walking in open spaces, for fear of not being able to escape. My anxiety is centered around my brain, and I have a fear of fainting, seizure, stroke, brain tumor, etc which I know are all a long shot because I'm a healthy 20 year old girl. Anyways, I was at school waking to my car when I felt a panic attack coming on, starting with jelly legs and a faint feeling. The fear stares rushing, and although I've been trying to ride out these feeling and NOT run away because those are unhealthy behaviors, I couldn't do it for this one. I was sure I was about to faint or have a seizure, and I had to get to a bathroom to escape. When I finally reached a bathroom which felt like a journey, my heart rate slowed and I felt calmer. While I was in the bathroom, I realized that if something really terrible was going to happen to me like a loss of control I'm scared of, going to a bathroom to calm down wouldn't have stopped a seizure or fainting. This is the moment I realized I need to be brave and tough out the panic feelings. They can not hurt me, no matter how uncomfortable and scary they may SEEM. I am determined to beat panic.