So, I just found this site doing some homework on why my heart seems to race and flutter constantly. I've been dealing with anxiety over the course of probably 3 months now. I was the kind of guy that always thought I would never deal with anxiety, depression, etc. Been healthy all my life and lucky. 33 years old, happily married with a smart and beautiful 5 year old daughter.
Sorry to bounce around but I've heard that telling your story is a good way to release some anxiety and start the healing process so to speak. About a year ago I started getting some random chest pains. They were never gripping pains but enough to notice they are there and freak you out. I ignored them at first and attributed it to working out and maybe having a chest strain. They continued on for a month and that's when I started getting online and trying to self diagnose myself. Big mistake. Anybody that has searched chest pains knows what I'm talking about. Heart attack, heart failure, heart disease, etc. The possibilities are endless on WebMD. I instantly thought I was having a heart attack as I could feel my BPM skyrocketing. I took myself to the closest ER and they did the normal EKG and I was fine. They did find that I had higher than normal blood pressure. I believe it was in the 160/100 range. I did my follow up with my primary doctor and he put me on blood pressure medicine and attributed my chest pains to blood pressure. About 10 months went by and the pains were very rare. Which brings me to the last couple months...
The pains started coming back a little more often but this time they started being accompanied by shortness of breath and a quicker than normal heart beat, typically at night time. I've actually had the ambulance come once b/c I of the rapid heart beat, chest tightness, etc. They did the EKG and told me I was fine. Then about 1 month later at around 2am in the morning I woke up having a panic attack and drove myself to the ER. They did the typical EKG, chest X-Ray, drew blood, etc. Once again, cleared to go home, no signs of heart attack, bad heart, etc. I drove home around 8am and just kept telling myself everything is fine, everything is great, you're healthy but deep down it was hard to convince myself of this. A few days later I saw my doctor and he tried reasoning with me. The paramedics, the hospitals, they wouldn't let me go if they thought something was wrong with me. It's their obligation to make sure before releasing me. He kept telling me i'm fine, i'm good, etc. He then told me to make an appointment with a cardiologist and maybe that will ease my mind. I had my appointment back about 8 days ago. The doctor decided to put me on a 2 week heart monitor and ordered a stress test. I've had the monitor on for a few days and the stress test on Friday.
In the meantime I've had to go back and see the doctor b/c my issue waking up every night around 2am and struggling to go back to sleep b/c of my rapid heart beat. I've also added on certain times having my face heat up and my body feel like it's burning, small stabbing pains around my body, feeling like I need a deep breath and not being able to get it. I told my doctor this is literally breaking me and pretty much had a breakdown in his office. He told me everything that's going on im doing to myself. The stress test/heart monitor is for the cardiologist to cover his butt so he can tell me with 100% certainty my heart is fine and i'm OK. If they thought different he wouldn't have pushed my follow up appointment to the end of march. He put me on anti-anxiety medication (Lexapro) and told me i'd start feeling better after about 5 days. I tried it for a couple days and the third day in I literally felt like I wasn't myself anymore. I walked around in my backyard for about 30 minutes aimlessly with no thoughts and no emotions. At that point I decided to stop taking it and try to deal with my anxiety without any type of medication like that.
I have my good days and I have my bad days. I've decided to try and make an appointment with a psychiatrist and figure out how to balance everything out until I get my heart monitor and stress test results next month. Praying when I get my results and everything is good i'll start feeling better.
If you actually made it through my entire story thus far I really really appreciate you reading it. I felt like I needed an outlet to just let go. I truly sympathize with anyone dealing with anxiety and depression. I hope to have a happy ending and be able to share my story with anyone else that feels like it'll never end.