Hi! I am new here and going through a horrendous Mirtazapine withdrawal. I have just completed a very long Seroquel withdrawal (am now on day 77 of being totally off) and am now starting 2 slow taper from 15 mg. per day of Mirtazapine. I have been on an off this poison 4 several years and as I am paradoxical 2 both it and Seroquel, I need 2 get off it safely and a.s.a.p. I started my w/d from Mirt. about a week and a half ago. I am using a compounded taper and am only doing 5% every two weeks. I will b doing another .75 mg per day drop this coming Friday, February 17, 2017. So far my w/d symptoms include but not limited 2 as they can change from time 2 time: CHRONIC INSOMNIA (no sleep most days and nights 4 weeks on end), burning, tingling, numbness, vibrations throughout body and head, heart palpitations, adrenaline surges, blurry vision, ringing in the ears, frozen brain (feel like I can't think or function at all), feeling like I am going insane or will die at any moment due 2 the ongoing lack of sleep, extreme fatigue and the list goes on. As a child I was put on benzodiazapines and was on them 4 about 26 years and came off them cold turkey and went through a 3 year horrendous withdrawal. That was about 40 years ago and I haven't touched them since.
In 2003 I was put on Seroquel 4 the first time due 2 having severe anxiety/panic attacks and chronic insomnia. I ended up on the psych ward where they also put me on Gabapentin and Remeron. It took the doctors a year 2 figure out it was my thyroid that was malfunctioning so I slow tapered off the Seroquel but stayed on the Gabapentin and Remeron. In 2013 I went back on the Seroquel as I was once again having the anxiety/;panic attacks and chronic insomnia 4 several months. I was still taking the Remeron and Gabapentin. I later found out I had Lyme Disease, Bartonella and Babesia (co-infections of Lyme which the doctors flatly refuse 2 believe I have) and have been suffering horrendously ever since. Over the past 2 years I have slow tapered off the Gabapentin, Zoplicone, Seroquel and Cortef and now have this one last poison 2 taper from. I am still suffering horrendously from hypo-hyperthyroidism as both Seroquel and Remeron can block the absorption of the desiccated thyroid meds I am taking causing my medication 2 constantly needing 2 b adjusted as it just won't stay balanced.
Today I am having all my usual symptoms but am also feeling like I am at deaths door with the frozen brain and feeling like I just can't go on like this much longer. I am so close 2 being totally done with these horrible, extremely debilitating poisons but the thought of having 2 do this 4 another 4 months is totally unbearable 2 me. I am totally exhausted, have basically no one 2 help me with anything as my family of origin shunned me 5 years ago and has left me 2 die alone.
I would appreciate knowing if anyone else on here has gone 4 weeks without sleep while slow tapering off Mirtazapine? I am working with a wonderful herbalist but it seems like nothing I take or do helps. I would appreciate any support, encouragement or information anyone can give me regarding getting off this drug once and 4 all. If u would b willing 2 speak with me either by video chat or phone, please e-mail me your phone number and I will call u. I have free long distance in Canada and United States. I am living in Canada. I am totally desperate 2 get off this poison so I can truly start healing. I don't want 2 die, however at this point it would b preferable 2 what I am going through. I am not at this point going 2 commit suicide, but this is not living, it is just barely existing. Sorry 4 the long post.