I am new here. And I have been trying to deny the fact that I am mentally unstable for a few years now. Partially because I can not afford medication, or seeing a councilor. But also because I feel selfish and stupid that only at 15, I believe I am struggling with anxiety and depression. Our generation is known for over exaggerating or looking for attention when in comes to mental illnesses. And I didn't want to jump out to people saying I needed help, because I didn't want to be judged. But I am struggling so badly anymore I don't know what to do or think about myself. I can't calm myself down when I get upset, I get extremely nervous when doing anything. Like going to school, talking to family, normal things. I worry and stress about every situation to a point that I over think it and freak myself out. I get down and can't seem to get up. I always feel like I bring others down, because of my presence, so I distance myself. I have negative thoughts that I know I shouldn't be having, but it seems uncontrollable anymore. I don't feel like I deserve happiness because I am worthless as it is. I need to fix myself, because my family needs me but I don't know how. If you have any ideas, please let me know.