This morning about 230 am I woke up to a heavy chest, shortness of breath, weakness in my body. In addition, I had a horrible feeling of emptiness, blackness, a void, nothingness, a feeling as if I just died, there was nothing there and I'm back. I started crying, I had an overwhelming feeling of emptiness inside me, a feeling of extreme sadness that I wouldn't be here with my kids, my spouse, that I was gone. It's now 130 pm and I have yet to go back to sleep, im afrail to close my eyes, I have a feeling of maybe sadness/terror, idk, that is just overwhelming me and I can't. shake it and I am continuing to cry constantly. I am on some heavy meds, but have been on them for 20 years now. I am 46 and my birthday was 6 days ago, but never in my life have I felt the way I do now. I'm just not sure what is happening. Has this happened to anyone else before?