Nothing is bothering me I am content I am drinking my smoothie ok and sucking on kitkats but these past months i watch the day break . I might nod off for a couple of hours Later .
Thank you all for your replies their much appreciate. Where I live I have a bad name for being nuts and not many talk to me or even acknowledge me but to be honest i love ot because to much drama makes me ill. So many two faced most are sharks trying to get what they can. Drug dealers and loan sharks get more respect than people who try and do good. Things are slowly changing because police are cracking down.
I feel good now and thats whats important like you said Alan live for today . Since keeping to myself i have been more content if it wasn't for this disease i have I think I would be even more happy but Achalasia stops you from eating out cant visit because I suffer Asthma and people smoke heavily including skunk which would definitely start my asthma off. I do feel my life is now more controlled by my diseases and aanxiety but somewhhere I am finding the strength to carry on and thats saying something after all I have been through lol well got that of my chest for now. Take care all. Unil next time.