I hate feeling the way that I do... I am a shy person who is 51 and have being all my life with a low self esteem. I work with patients with mental health problems and I am supposed to talk to them to see if i can help. I hate talking to people for others to hear me, especially managers and other people who has being there much longer than myself because i am being judged .The company have moved me three times and I have to now keep trying to establish myself. I feel that I can't eat and drink two glasses of wine every night, the shifts are 12 hours which i hate. nearly every day I have to cope with the nerves plus I hate travelling by train.