Ever since my first panic attack, I've realised that I no longer have any emotions, I just feel empty, I cannot laugh, smile, get angry, I look at myself in the mirror and I don't recognise myself.
I look back at pictures of me when I was happy and I don't identify with that person.
I can cry but I feel nothing, I have no emotional connection to family anymore, when I know I should have a certain emotion, nothing comes out, I do not get that tingling feeling anymore, I cannot even fake an emotion because it just feels wrong.
I feel emotionally numb, I just want to feel something.
What can I do?
I'm currently receiving therapy, and taking vitamin B tablets, I do some excercise and try to get out of the house as much as possible but nothing seems to be helping.
I am suffering from GAD, Depersonalisation and what I believe to be Depression, I just want to feel again.