crazy anxiety

Hey everyone,

I've joined this as I am getting so fed up of life sometimes I get suicidal thoughts. I have had, well I think I have health anxiety and it all started once when I couldn't breathe properly and thought I was going to die.

I am extremely fed up of waking up everyday seeing no point of life and feeling like I am going to die. It puts me off going out and is starting to put me off many activities as I am extremely worried and scared something will happen to my body.

I experience weakness everyday. My mind tends to go blank and funny sometime, it's hard to describe. Everything around me seems weird and fake I also get sharp pain in my arms and sometimes near the chest. I get many symptoms which tend to get worse on trains and buses if I am alone.

I have had ECGs and blood tears and everything has always come back clear, my GP keeps telling me everything is a symptom of anxiety. But, never do I feel normal and I just want to feel like a normal person again. Also feeling like dying everyday is making everything worse. What do you do when all your tests are clear but you feel far from fine?!?!?! I am really fed up to a point where I feel like I can't deal no more.