I newly joined a church and as part of the ceremony, everyone is required to pour some wine into a small glass and drink it. My anxiety was too overwhelming and my hands trembled while holding the glass. Other people might have thought I was just not used to it because I was new. But since then, I have been avoiding the ceremony altogether by going an hour late. And now someone said to me, out of kindness, that if it's possible, try not to be late and take part in the ceremony. But the picture of me holding the glass scares me too much. I don't know what to do. I can't give more excuses.