After struggling with my boyfriend things seemed to take a turn for the better. We seemed to argue less and find the love again. He continues to drink which still upsets me, borrowing money for his alcohol habits. He left his emails logged into my tablet when he was in work last night and I couldn't help but look. As he hides things from me I knew I would find something, and I certainly did. One was from a payday loan saying URGENT, YOU NEED TO PAY NOW! He had gone way over his time limit and owed a couple of hundred which he didn't tell me about. ( as he has about £2k in other debts which he is failing to pay back too). The next was a dating website.... Which he seemed to sign up to last month. I was absolutely mortified. Knowing his past and that he would comment and like other girls pics flirty message girls etc this website seemed legit. I had seen that he had messaged several girls too but I couldn't look at the messages. When he returned from work I had packed his things and left them on the top of the stairs. He still protests that the dating website isn't his, although it's from.his email etc.
The thought of him moving out literally breaks me. I can't even feel angry about the situation, I just feel so disappointed and empty. I feel like I'm too weak to leave him/him move out on our new flat.
When I try talk about things he just turns things back on me and makes out like I'm the bad person. Just feel helpless. 
Fed up of getting the silent treatment from hubby😔
Bad anxiety poor coping methods
fluoxetine and bad thoughts 
Bad dreams and bad weather
Hit head and bad bad anxiety about it
