Hello, you are all so brave talking about your worries on here and your conversations are always supportive and understanding. I shall try my best to help in any way I can. You have inspired me to tell you a bit about me.
I have always had a problem with people being close to me, physically and emotionally. Mental abuse from family played a part in my problems but the feeling of being repugnant and disgusting both inside and out became impossible to ignore. Boyfriends would quickly lose interest as any kind of closeness made me physically sick. My life became one large lie, with me making up stories to make me seem normal. I have been diagnosed with social anxiety, claustrophobia, ocd (intrusive thoughts), agoraphobia and Panic attacks are a daily nightmare. I live alone, I am alone and I will die alone. I am broken and nobody can fix me.
Sorry that got a little more intense than I intended, gonna stop now sorry xxx