Not sure why..

[shadow45]

I am so bloody shaky in the mornings now... I wonder if it could be from my meds... This feeling of emptiness has no real cause... as I do have people in my life.... I have an appointment with my therapist this week... I am lucky that my work schedule will not interfere with this one.... I need to see my therapist as its an anchor for me... I am still very nervous about work ...I go today at noon. I can`t get the thought out of my head that Ill not be able to handle it when it gets busy.... At night I don't have a problem with any of this... I can think clearly and then I have a lot more confidence in my ability to do whatever comes my way.... But the mornings are completely different as I feel that I should not be taking on any more stress at this time etc .....I won't be seeing my GP until my meds have to be renewed. My main pill may be causing this shaky sensation.. it's like being unsteady in my skin like a little hangover...as you all know this is one of the most debilitating things about anxiety the up and down of the emotions. Its so damn tiring... If I could only maintain feeling the way I do a night my life would be almost back to (normal). I think I may be worried that most all of my family will be out of touch for several weeks as my Brother and my Daughter are both going out of the country for several weeks vacation. steve

[Hidden]

Hi Steve.

It sounds like your having some rough mornings,it could well be your medication causing your problems I hope you get it sorted soon.You know we will all be here when your brother and daughter are away.

Keep going Kenny

[shadow45 in reply to Hidden]

I worry that my Dad will be without my brothers company for almost 6 weeks as well.... I know he will be very unhappy without that contact he needs so badly......There are just so many worries now I am starting to feel overwhelmed by it all again...steve

[Hidden]

Hi steve x I think the shaky mornings could be due to anxiety, when we are anxious an on edge all of the time, we basically allow our bodies to become use to the feeling of adrenalin surging around building the level of cortisol and fighting off the feel good hormones, so when we start to get life back a little, the lack of adrenalin can leave you shaky x We have become addicted after all x Good luck with your therapist this week, maybe ask her this one as she would be able to give you reassurance x Im sure you will handle work with great strength when busy as you will go onto auto pilot and not give thought to anything else which is great distraction for you x You will be feeling great before you know it and will meet lots of new people and hopefully form some really good bonds so he loneliness can become a thing of the past x Try to not think to much of your family being out of town, just think of all the progress and such you can inform them of on their return x Donver x

[shadow45 in reply to Hidden]

Oh I hope so.... I just am so damn nervous these days... Its like I have regressed somehow... I hope my meds are not causing this as they have been working so far... steve

[anne1964]

Hi Steve

Im always worse in the morning..... I had my breakdown last sept, I have been feeling better , ive done cbt and having counselling, I was hoping to get back to work when my sick note runs out ( I work for myself) luckily the lady I see from mind said try and do a bit and then youll know if youre ready, rreally glad I did cos all my anxiety has come back, so clearly not ready!!

So really Im just empathising with you regarding work and the fact that your doing it is fantastic, so a big pat on the back!!

Love Ker x

[shadow45 in reply to anne1964]

Hi anne ...I may not be ready to take on too much yet..... I will find out on Thursday whether I have started back too soon..... I haven't been given a full job description and I do tend to think the worst... I start to think that Ill be doing it all with no help..... its a nightmare I have over and over. This job is a bit of an experiment for me.... as I wasn't going to go back until I felt I was ready.... And I am still locked into thinking that I will not be able to handle any stress.... So If I do feel an overwhelming anxiety attack I'll have to stop and rethink my recovery plan.. steve

[anne1964 in reply to shadow45]

I Empathise Steve, Im in the same boat........ was feeling fine and so keen to get back to normal and return to work..... and hey presto.... overwhelmed again....

Maybe too much too soon??

SEnding you lots of luck K x