Hi, this is my first post on this site. I have struggled with Severe Depression and Generalised Anxiety Disorder for about 13 years now. I have been on every imaginable medication I think there is. I have had ECT all to no avail. I have attempted suicide on a few occasions, and been sections because of this. I have also self harmed a lot.
About years ago, I was again at the point of not being able to cope with life any more. I was looking on the internet about he medications out there, and came across Escitalopram, which I have never tried, I asked my psychiatrist at that time if I could try it, he agreed, and I started to pick up after a while, so I feel like it is the drug that saved my life. (I also take Trazadone 350mg every night, along with 20mg Diazepam a day).
Things have been getting so so much worse. I am no longer under the Mental Health Team, all things changed here, and you only get 12 sessions with a care worker and that is it. To be honest, she was of no help at all, and if anything, made things a lot worse.
I have nowhere to turn. I have recently changed doctors, who does not know me at all. I am terrified to go and see him, because the Mental Health Team referred my care back to the doctors. I do not want to be re-referred to them anyway, because each time I get mixed up with them, all goes wrong. If its left to the Doctor, I am petrified that he will try to play around with my medication, and I feel so on the edge at the moment, that I am scared he will remove one of them, which I wont be able to cope without, I already feel suicidal, and fear that this will tip me over the edge.
Please has any one else been in a similar situation, and if so, what did you do. I am really struggling, and I dread each day coming round.
Many thanks to all that have taken the time to read my 'book'