Scared I may need more help........

[smudge2013]

Hv a veryNot sure how to write it, but hear goes..... I've bn signed off work a few months now, due to stress at work, anxiety and now depression? I've bn attendingc ubt,got useful homework to work thru. The thing is I just don't feel like I'm worthy of help,or to help myself, it's sounds crazy, and im worried that I am, my ears are ringing, head pouding, sooo exhausted, feel like lots of opinions, thoughts people shouting in my head. My sick line runs out tomorrow. I just feel the need to go a long walk somewhere, don't even no where, but the confused feelings will still b there. I have a very supportive fiance, my family love me too,but I just feel so alone,so distant from everyone, my parents are very proud people, I dont thinl they realise the extent of how I'm feeling. Only because I reassured them I was getting the help I need. But it took me 3 months to tell them that I was signed off. I ran out of excuses why I had 'days off' work. I'm scared to to see doctor for follow up appt, how do you know when u need to be hospitalised??? I feel sooo much like nick from corrie, though I havnt bn violent, but feel it. Feel like I've had a break down? Is this.possible? Just turned 31, and cant stop thinking about how ill cope later in life, because we want to have kids one day, before we get married. I hoped to be settled n career, married,kids but thes things can't happen until I'm stable n career.....Argh. frustrated. Would be grateful of any response xxx I work in care home for frail, elderly, dementia

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Hi Smudge

You are worthy of help everyone of us is , anxiety & depression can tell us otherwise & that is what is telling you this but believe me you are & need to ask for more help as it sounds like at the moment you are still struggling

The cbt you seem to sound like you feel it is not working very well , I know it does take time but if you really feel it is getting you no where then as well as how you are feeling I would really go back & see your GP , tell him/her everything you have said in your post , write it down if you struggle & let them read it as I am sure there will be more they can do to help you

We can let our minds wander into the future & the what if's & when we do & we feel like this we can only see lots of negatives , so I try to stay in the day with my thoughts , it really does help

Hope you go & see your GP , let us no how you go on

Love

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xxx

[jules2105]

Hi smudge

I really think you should goto see your gp, it doesn't sound like you are ready to go back to work. I have the constant ringing in my head too which drives me crazy. alternatively if you don't feel you can go to the doctors I would suggest you give them a call and ask for your sick note to be extended. I've also heard that the Samaritans are a good to call to talk things through until you can see your therapist again.

Let us know how you get on

Jules x

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Hi smudge

You have done so well in communicating how you feel on here. You are not losing it or going mad but I know through my own experience that it really feels like that.

Keep your gp appointment and talk through how you are feeling or write it down and give it to your gp that way he/she can look at how best to help you and renew your sick note so work pressure is taken off you.

Fear is the thing that keeps anxiety/depression going. If we are afraid we become tense and then follows the aches and pain and nothing makes sense so we feel we are losing it. Your nerves are over sensitised and overloaded.

Relaxation is key but it takes time and practice, start with focussing on your breathing and notice any tension in your body, if your knees are tense just wriggle them while you breathe slowly, work through your body until you release as much tension as possible.. Even our eyes become tense when we are anxious so give them a wiggle too.

Take care hun and keep talking on here we understand and see your gp too

Love eve x