I'm best friends with this guy, lets just call him K, he is so kind and big hearted & such a gentle giant.. He listens to me all the time, he says im the only one who gets him & see's the real him & if i ever left him he would go insane, and he's even told me he loved me.. But i know, he's not in love bcoz he's hurting from his ex. And i was not in love with him either but we've been kind of flirting lately & K has always been close to me & i love him deeply, he cares about me very much & we can trust each other & he makes me feel better & vise versa..
Well.. Lately i've been feeling wrong coz he's been flirting with me like saying he wishes i was there so he could hold me because i told him about my anxiety, and he's always lookin after me.. And he loves fallin' asleep with me on face time, every night.. He told me to never leave.. So i was feeling wrong & saying to myself that him and i are not right for eachother,
Not like im thinking.. I dont love him even though im getting that from him.. I was gona tell him we have to stop & that this isnt right for best friends to do.. & he said i comfort him blah blah blah so i sent him a song today, that one by Johnny Cash 'it ain't me babe'
Coz i dont want him to think that im in love and that i want to be with him.. Coz i dont even though i do have feelings for him..
Im really not in love and i dont want to jeapordize our friendship..
I dunno what to do..
He's obsessed with me though.
Oh btw i went to the doc today & i just have a clogged ear. Haha nothin serious.. Hm..
Hope all is well!