I've been suffering depression for a few years now and I've recently gone back to the doctors to ask for more treatment which he's put me back on CBT. The reason I'm low this time is because of my job being so demanding but I've been looking forward to my holiday to see my boyfriend who lives 400 miles away, so that's been keeping me going. We've managed great so far but last week he told me he couldn't do it anymore because he misses me too much and told me not to come up despite me paying £100 on tickets.
So now I'm here 4 days later, he's not talking to me, I've not eaten for 4 days, I'm always crying, I've not got the energy to do my job properly and I keep getting thoughts I just want to die, there's too much going on in my head for me to think straight and the pain i'm in is too much. I know it gets easier I've been here before and luckily I get to start my treatment tomorrow but has anyone else been in a similar situation?