Hello. I have only posted here once before a while ago. I have a phobia of being ill myself or seeing other people be sick. Unfortunately I have been unwell the past week and whilst I have not been physically sick I have been on the toilet a lot and felt very sick. The problem is now my anxiety is sky high and I am struggling to cope. I have to control my breathing constantly and it is driving my parents mad that I am sitting in the living room with them breathing really heavily and shaking uncontrollably. Night times are particularly bad, my anxiety gets higher throughout the day and is the highest at night. I find going to bed really scary cause I do not know if I am going to wake up ill. I need to deal with this phobia because I genuinely think that if I don't it will end in my suicide because when I feel ill I want to die so badly and the anxiety is just too overwhelming. I know most of you have probably stopped reading by now but please please reply if you have any ideas that can help me:
1) Does anyone have a similar phobia and have you beat it? If so, how?
2) Does anyone have tips for dealing with anxiety so it doesn't get to panic attack stage?
3) Does anyone know any self help material which could help me, any books or anything?
Thank you in advance