I've been arguing with myself for the past 3 hours now - should I take my dog for a walk? I want to, as he needs the exercise, and I also want to go to burn calories, but I don't have the energy and feel my 40kg German Shepherd would pull me over easily when I'm like this! Plus, I have gaping blisters on my ankles and toes from those blasted wellies, the things I do for that pup! Marching 4 miles a time, looking as rough as the mad hatter... I hope he's satisfied with my pain! And not to mention the fact I have to stick to the same 4-mile route every time, if I don't do it, I don't feel satisfied I've walked him enough, and he'll cause trouble and cause the family to fall out, you could call that an OCD somewhat... I have to walk through the estate too, where PEOPLE are, I only normally go really early (around now) or late at night around 10-11 ish.
I'm not sure of myself today, haven't been for a long time, been experiencing a snap of psychosis, yanno, voices? It's becoming a regular occurrence now, thinking overboard. Entire life revolves around weight and stress, I seem to be going back in time, I am not ready to face the world now, yet when the problems started, I was. Lots of thoughts going round and round, turning into voices, some of which say one or two words when I'm trying to sleep, it's very frustrating.
I have a poorly guinea pig too, and I'm worried I will have to remove her from her 2 sisters... She damaged her leg 4 days ago, and is still limping on it, now her 'good' leg is swelling up from the extra weight, so that means a vet trip, one I don't enjoy doing!