My head is battered today

Been really strong until today................................why should i feel like this when i didnt do anything wrong, there for someone and got treat like crap. Sorry guys, whingeing but cant get my head round things today......................is it the anxiety with him pushing loved ones away, or is it just a excuse

[AntoniaSaysHello]

Tell us more, what happened?

If it helps, sleep on it first and maybe things will be clearer in the morning and you can write about it.

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You have been a rock to him Lou

I no I can push people away especially loved ones when I am feeling anxious , but its just on the worse days , the rest of the time I don't

I would hope its not an excuse , but I don't no him , its hard to judge , maybe he is so unwell , he just cant deal with anything , as I no sometimes it can be that way for some

You have done well , no one can take that away from you , but days like today ,will crop up , you wouldn't have loved him if at this stage you had got completely over him

I am sorry you feel bad today

I wish I could say more to make you feel better

(((((((((hugs )))))))))))

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Thanks for answering Antonia, if you read my blogs you will get a insight of things.

Whywhy, bless ya. I feel bad today not being there for him, but i know i need to stay away and also need to see if he is going to make some sort of effort...............there isnt much to say really. Just feel hurt with everything i have done for him and he cba bothering to make a effort. x

[fadedlizard]

Sorry you're feeling low, Lou. You really have done so much for him, darling. I know he's ill but he has got to try and meet you half way (or at least somewhere). That's what being in a relationship is all about.

Hope you feel better today.

Love

Lizard.xxx

[copdber]

You have to look after yourself so as to be able to help someone else. So take the time you need and come back with feeling revitalised. I know you want to help him, but sometimes the best thing to do is get some space between you for a little while. Enjoy some quiet time for your self.

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Thanks FL. Hope you are ok. x

Makes sense what you say copber, just now i need to know he is ok. I know i have to hold out and let him do the work..................if he ever does. You are right with the time out as it does get to you, and people have said i have changed. x

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Sorry youre feeling crap Lou...... You have been more than amazing with him, youve put his needs before your own, but you cant do that forever............ and even though initially you were angry (which is good) other feelings creep in............

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Youve got to think of yourself now and your own health!! xx

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So mad with myself for feeling this way. I liked it when i felt nothing for him. Hope you are doing ok. x