I went to see the post traumatic stress counsellor today and she says that she believes that I am still in shock and suffering acutely from grief. She has spoken to a psychiatrist today as my GP wasn't in and they have decided to do something with my meds - not sure what she says I need to make an appointment with the doctor. She feels that I need to rest a lot more than I do, I do sleep when numbed through alcohol but otherwise I just have nightmares.
She is also liaising with my bereavement counsellor so that I see them on alternative weeks. She was also going to try and chase my complaint with the hospital and may be able to attend some meetings with me.