Feel guilty for feeling ungrateful for my life

[wecanhelpeachother]

....sometimes I just want it to end. Just stop.I know it's awful to be so ungrateful for my life. But I'm so exhausted from the constant anxiety and depression

I have a reason (physical health) to dread each day I have left and I'm in my forties.

Just venting here, sorry

I feel very sinful for thinking this way and I pray for forgiveness

[LazyXrayEyes2255]

I have you talked to your doctor or therapist?

[wecanhelpeachother in reply to LazyXrayEyes2255]

Thanks, yeah, they know. They encourage me to keep on the antidepressants

[JosephinePerez420]

It can be hard to be grateful when we are in our feelings. I can't always recognize the positive.

[wecanhelpeachother in reply to JosephinePerez420]

Thanks yes I agree....

[Xene]

Hi, I think it’s perfectly normal for those who suffer chronic physical illness to develop depression and or anxiety. I certainly don’t believe you need forgiveness for how you feel. Feeling sinful is obviously due to what you believe in and if it helps you to pray for forgiveness I hope your prayers are answered.

[wecanhelpeachother in reply to Xene]

Thank you .....it's the fear as well. Fear of life and fear of death... You are kind to reply

[Xene in reply to wecanhelpeachother]

No problem, I know all about the complexities of trying to exist with chronic physical and mental health. There are times when I have almost opted out. Am I gad I didn’t, sometimes yes and sometimes no. We just have to try and fight on as best we can.🤷‍♀️

[Riley2001]

Guilt is a worthless emotion. Why are you apologizing?

[LazyXrayEyes2255]

I know I am withdrawing sometimes because of the pain I'm in. But I accept that I have to change and pass this thing called life. Control emotions and then control actions. To become better version of myself

[LazyXrayEyes2255 in reply to LazyXrayEyes2255]

youtu.be/4GFn5xAD3jU?si=RRB...(Not working as expected?)

[UglyDuckling546]

You don't need to apologise nobody will judge you hear, I feel like running away or ending things too sometimes anxiety and depression is a horrible thing and can take over but try and take each day as it comes I hope that we all get better one day

[wecanhelpeachother]

yeah i know what you mean there are people worse off than me who are strong but i guess we are all individuals with our own problems and our own abilities to cope.... I'm just so disabled it's like each day is an empty space waiting to be filled and there are not many things to fill it except a lot of worry and misery. I don't know what's next, with my problems, at the moment I feel lucky that I'm able to type and connect with people online, i know there are people who can't do that.

[wecanhelpeachother]

Hey, I'm really sorry, I said I was disabled but I just mean that literally, in that right now I'm unable to walk and I have no prognosis at all and I've been unable to walk for three months . I don't know what FND is, have you had that all your life? There must be other people who share your condition who can relate to what you're doing through. In any case, you're in distress, I hear that, and we are all fellow human beings and we feel each others pain, it's annoying we can't be there in person to help and hug each other, but at least the internet means you can reach out.....Hey big hugs right back 🤗