Feel guilty for feeling ungrateful for my life

[wecanhelpeachother]

....sometimes I just want it to end. Just stop.I know it's awful to be so ungrateful for my life. But I'm so exhausted from the constant anxiety and depression

I have a reason (physical health) to dread each day I have left and I'm in my forties.

Just venting here, sorry

I feel very sinful for thinking this way and I pray for forgiveness

[LazyXrayEyes2255]

I have you talked to your doctor or therapist?

[wecanhelpeachother in reply to LazyXrayEyes2255]

Thanks, yeah, they know. They encourage me to keep on the antidepressants

[JosephinePerez420]

It can be hard to be grateful when we are in our feelings. I can't always recognize the positive.

[wecanhelpeachother in reply to JosephinePerez420]

Thanks yes I agree....

[Xene]

Hi, I think it’s perfectly normal for those who suffer chronic physical illness to develop depression and or anxiety. I certainly don’t believe you need forgiveness for how you feel. Feeling sinful is obviously due to what you believe in and if it helps you to pray for forgiveness I hope your prayers are answered.

[wecanhelpeachother in reply to Xene]

Thank you .....it's the fear as well. Fear of life and fear of death... You are kind to reply

[Xene in reply to wecanhelpeachother]

No problem, I know all about the complexities of trying to exist with chronic physical and mental health. There are times when I have almost opted out. Am I gad I didn’t, sometimes yes and sometimes no. We just have to try and fight on as best we can.🤷‍♀️

[Riley2001]

Guilt is a worthless emotion. Why are you apologizing?

[LazyXrayEyes2255]

I know I am withdrawing sometimes because of the pain I'm in. But I accept that I have to change and pass this thing called life. Control emotions and then control actions. To become better version of myself

[LazyXrayEyes2255 in reply to LazyXrayEyes2255]

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[SuPeRStAr12]

Hi ,you don't have to ask for forgiveness because of the way you feel,I feel exactly the same I've tried to take my life on numerous occasions everyone deals with their problems in a different way.I have physical problems as well but i'm very lucky iv'e got a good friend that helps me a lot but at the same time I still don't want to live the way I am, constantly in pain,feeling weak depressed and severe anxiety this isn't living it's just surviving.I know that there's people worse than me and I praise they people for trying to get on with their life as best they can but i'm finding it very difficult to do that.I really feel for you that you don't have anyone around that you can trust to help you that must be a nightmare,I find it difficult to trust people aswell i'm suspicious of everyone.I suffer from dissociation so when I go out I feel very dizzy and disconnected from what's going on around me,I havn't got a clue what's going on or what I'm meant to be doing.PLEASE DON'T WORRY ABOUT WHAT YOU SAY IN YOUR POSTS NOBODY IS JUDGING YOU,AND IF IT HELPS YOU EVEN JUST A LITTLE BY SAYING HOW YOU FEEL THEN SO BE IT. I'm thinking about you and totally sympathise with you I can't give advice on how to help because I'm struggling to help myself i truly hope that you find someone that can help you because it does make life a bit easier,TAKE CARE I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST,RANT AND MOAN UNTIL YOUR HEARTS CONTENT BECAUSE WE'RE ALL DOING THE SAME,PEOPLE DO CARE.😘😀

[UglyDuckling546]

You don't need to apologise nobody will judge you hear, I feel like running away or ending things too sometimes anxiety and depression is a horrible thing and can take over but try and take each day as it comes I hope that we all get better one day