Could use some perspective.

[MoonChild12]

hey everyone. I’m new here and this is my first post.

I’m struggling with a situation and I could really use some other perspective. So this past Sunday was a very bad for me. I’ve been struggling with my anxiety and depression more than I have in a while for the last few weeks. I’ve been open with my partner and my roommates (my best friend of 13 years and her wife). My partner and my roommates have become very close and they hang out without me often. My best friends wife even asked my partner to be my nieces godmother. So I’ve been feeling very left out and like my partner is replacing me in their lives. Anyways…Sunday my partner basically broke up with me and it was just kind of the straw that broke the camels back. I had never felt the way I did ever before. I was so certain for the time I was no longer willing to be here. I started brainstorming and ended up going home to write my letter. I don’t know why but I called my partner to ask her if my friends knew she was going to break up with me. She asked if I was going to do something and I simply said yes. Her and my best friend were at the park playing basketball together and they “rushed” home to me. My partner talked me out of it but I haven’t spoke to my friends since. My partner says I need to make amends and repair my friendship because what I did was triggering and stressful. I’m upset because as my friends why were they not there when I needed them the most. My therapist told me it’s not my job to make amends in this situation. She agrees that my friends messed up by not being there when I was at my rock bottom. I don’t know what to do…

[Curry223]

hello, I’ve read your story from your perspective and I agree that your friends and partner were wrong for leaving you out of certain things. I believe maybe space from them would benefit for all of you. Your friend And partner love you but maybe it’s hard for them to understand your mental state. I hope you’re taking care of yourself and try not to worry too much about the situation

[Dolphin14]

MoonChild12

I'm so sorry you went through this. I'm sorry your partner is pushing you to make amends.

I would agree with your therapist. You didn't do anything wrong. They should be asking you if you are ok and supporting you.

This has to be very hurtful

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Oops making an edit

I forgot to say welcome to the community

[MoonChild12 in reply to Dolphin14]

Thank you. It has been really hurtful and I just don’t know what to do…everyone is expecting me to make things right but I don’t think that’s fair. I understand that the situation was a lot emotionally but it’s not like I did it on purpose.

[Dolphin14 in reply to MoonChild12]

It may have been a lot emotionally for them but honestly, who was suffering? It was you. Obviously you were hurting big time or you wouldn't have been in that situation

Are you still being pressured? If so can you say you talked to your therapist and at this time she wants you focusing on your emotions, not someone else's

[MoonChild12 in reply to Dolphin14]

I haven’t brought it up to my partner since 2 days ago cause I don’t really feel like hearing the same thing. It’s so complicated and frustrating. I’m trying my best to just focus on healing and doing the things my therapist and psychiatrist told me to do

[Dolphin14 in reply to MoonChild12]

Perfect, that's what you should be doing. I was wondering if you were being pushed by your partner and that's not what you need right now.

Take time to process and heal. Be good to yourself