I Can’t Anymore

[Agony1]

I’m traumatized by seven years ina row of devastating events that have broken my spirit and wrecked my ability to rebound.

My niece was murdered in her own yard, life’s financial curses have caused severe losses of very hard earned money for retirement and necessary repairs home, my son got cancer, then had the first brain surgery, my wife was suffering from heart failure, then my wife died five times in less than a week, then had a heart transplant (this entails never ending travels to the hospitals for never ending problems that heart transplant patients tend to suffer), then sons second brain surgery, and the latest is the fact that my son must move back in with us.

I can’t afford all this, and I can’t be everywhere at once. I work 10 hour days Monday thru Friday, run a nursing home at home, and make multiple trips to hospitals around here and 2 1/2 hours away. All that while trying to get my own health problems, that I’ve been forced to neglect, addressed.

With my bad lungs and guts, and what’s been described as fibromyalgia, depression, and anxiety by medicaldoctors, I can’t do this anymore. I’ve research everything under the sun.

Since there’s no help for me, I’m only here to have some outlet, or something.

I hope to contribute at times, but right now I want to lay my head down and never ever get up again. Sorry. I can’t anymore.

[Stippler]

I want to welcome you to this group of caring people. Bless your heart, it sounds like you have so much on your plate. Please feel free to vent here - that's what we are here for. We can listen. You and your family are in my thoughts. 🙏🙏🙏

[Agony1 in reply to Stippler]

Thank you for your kindness, and especially your prayers.

[Windsorgardener5087]

This is definitely the place to write about your situation with complete honesty. You will not be judged or condemned for reaching the end of your rope.Caring for others in any shape or form, certainly demands a lot of the carer.

I hope you can get some extra home help to lighten the load.

[Agony1 in reply to Windsorgardener5087]

Thank you