Need support. Alone, nauseous, coping with weird health system and burnt out nurses. No confidence and no care

[No_Longer_Human]

i puked and im emetophobic and trying my best to keep my gastritis in check and still i didn't recover. I need support. I can't take care of myself and also the daycare is terrible and the nurses didn't want to give me anything about nausea and gaslighted me it's anxiety and i have hard time. I also can't bother mom. Maybe this disability thing was a mistake, maybe grandparents will be mad and doctors will gaslight me and employers will discriminate me, but mom needed financial help. I send CVs like crazy but got no call. Also i doubt i would make it puking. Some new virus mutated here. Tho how can i know if it's anxiety or physical health? At least they drew some blood from me and i will know if something is really bad. But i can't visit a doctor while im hospitalised and my doctor won't sent me to visit a gastroenterologist because she will discriminate me and say it's anxiety.

[CLB1125]

are you admitted in the hospital or went to emergency for care? Is this all part of the process for disability? I think if you can’t work, disability is your only option. You have to decide what is best for you and not worry about what others in the family think. Take care. Let us know how you are doing.

[No_Longer_Human in reply to CLB1125]

Thank you so much dear. Im in daycare hospital which means i go there once a week to be checked and receive meds. Im not in residential hospital and i wasn't in the ER. I can't call the ER or other doctors covered by insurance while im hospitalised on documents. I can't work rn and i want to help mom and support myself so i im getting the disability. Thank you for supporting me, everyone irl is against it because of stigma. And yes, this daycare hospital is for my disability status. Thank you for talking with me

[CLB1125 in reply to No_Longer_Human]

To hell with stigma, I say. Do what is best for you.