Not sure if I'm posting this in the right place. Hopefully
2.5 years ago I ended a 30 yesr marriage. My spouse developed a dementia and became very abusive. Didn't realize what was happening until after we split.
Then I had cancer ( overcame it) and a stroke (I learned how to walk again). About a year ago my landlord said he intends to demolish the house I've lived in for 25 years. I raised my kids here. They gave me lots of notice so I reluctantly started looking. OMG have the rents skyrocketed in 25 yrs. It's a landlord's market.
Problem #2. I have a 9 year old mid sized dog, Evie and 2 clean indoor cats.
I can easily find a place with my 2 cats but my dog? No way. Ive applied to over 40 places. I am welcome, in 60% of cases my cats are welcome but no dogs. At least not one that weighs 45 lbs.
I have 2.5 months left to find a place. Evie is a reactive dog. She barks a lot and ... suddenly ... she was abused as a pup and I rescued her. Obedience training, medication nothing with stop her being noisy and reacting to strangers. On top, Evie has physical health issues. Probable diabetes and severe arthritis. Yet she bounces around like a kangaroo when she sees me.
I can't really afford a vet now I'm alone.
Can you see where I'm going with this? Giving her to a new owner would be soooo hard on her and I doubt any would put up with her barking or pay for her health issues. I'd be afraid she'd end her days at a dog pound. Friends and relatives cannot take her.
I'm left with a huge decision to make over the coming weeks. It will be yet another HUGE loss ... maybe even worse than the others.
So my anxiety disorder and depressive bouts are much worse!
I just had to get that out there. I feel like I just have had enough. I won't harm myself. I have 2 young grandsons. I just feel hopeless.
Thx!
Attaloss. xx