I'm still a prisoner!

[Senior4merEverything]

I can't begin to explain all of the crap I've been through in my life, and I doubt any large number of people would want to read about it, even here.

I feel like I'm still a prisoner of my PTSD. Therapy has been a trip of sorts and hasn't been all smooth sailing. I have to imagine that this makes me no different from anyone else!

Making this short and to the point: I've gone from Childhood sexual abuse victim to surviving that pig's assault! To my having survived "special circumstances" while in the service. Now? I'm just in existence mode, trying not to destroy myself on the trip while I'm simply trying to have one manageable day!

Good luck, to anyone who is having a bad time.

[Hidden]

Sending a hug. PTSD is a hard condition to live with. Often, it's a moment to moment, day to day struggle.

Would it help to remind you that those people can't hurt you anymore? If they knew you were still hurting would they be delighted? Don't give them the satisfaction. Disappoint them by not just surviving but thriving, one day at a time.

Pooh hug

[Senior4merEverything in reply to Hidden]

Thank you, for saying this. My original CSA lived in absolute terror of what I might have done to him for what he did to me. Once I was old enough to defend myself properly, I had a decent "talk" with him.

This isn't to say that I don't have current issues with past traumas, but the persons involved are rarely an issue.

[Hidden]

I just concentrate on present because past so terrible

It’s just getting myself and nonverbal autistic/disabled son through it

Keep talking to us and you should be able to cope alittle better

X

[catsrock]

I'm so sorry for all that happened to you. I hope things get better.

[Kayaker73]

Sending a hug and encouragement. I know it’s super hard but the more you are able to be present in the moment, the easier it is to get through each one. This is a practice. This is reminder to me as well. 😊