They woke me up with screaming again. My head hurts a lot and i feel like im going to vomit. Do you know how mom will react - "you're always nauseous, I'm sick of it, you do nothing and you're sick, you're a burden, now i have to take care of yourself, if you vomit on the floor, you will eat it". It is. How am i supposed to function here when my head, my belly hurt and I'm dizzy and nauseous. And my nose is full and i chocke. I miss dad
Nauseous and dizzy. The morning scand... - Anxiety and Depre...
Nauseous and dizzy. The morning scandals between mom and sis getting ready don't stop. I can't tell mom im unwell and to easy on me
Hi AtC,Can you please re-read what you wrote so that you can see how this sounds to others. Translate it into Bulgarian if it helps. Let's start with your first sentence. "They woke me up with screaming again." You make it about you. Do you see this? By writing it the way you wrote it, you are implying that it's their fault for waking you up. It is not. Let's break it down. Facts: they were screaming, and you woke up. There is no such thing as "they woke me up"; you included that yourself.
Going further down, you say "How am i supposed to function here when....". While this is more subtle when it comes to blaming others/other stimuli, it is there if you really look. Read your sentence again without the word "here" (I'm assuming that "here" means the apartment you live in with your mom and sister). Neither the apartment nor the ones you live with are causing your physical symptoms. My guess is that your brain is doing that because you are stressed (since stress can manifest itself physically and you are under lots of stress, this seems the most logical conclusion i, as someone who doesn't know you, can reach).
I can't get proper treatment for this stress if it's all in my head
It's not all in your head. I know that you're very stressed. What you're going through and what you're feeling are very real and very valid. What I'm trying to point out to you is that you keep blaming outsiders/outside stimuli for what you're going through. You need to work on yourself instead of blaming others. This is something you learn through life experience. I know it's scary.
Can you try to let go of the relationship between your Mother and sister? You know the saying "it is, what it is." They are not going to change. You have to focus on yourself. You can't change them, but you can change yourself. Right now, you just have to focus on getting yourself physically healthy. I hope you get well soon. Don't let yourself be overwhelmed by everything else. Give your body and mind time to rest. Take good care of yourself.
I know how you feel. I miss my mom.
If they make those nasty comments a good idea is you should record it or have a security system so if anything happens that they discriminate you because of your disability they can't get away with the hateful stuff they say or log it in the words they said at this time date, describe the setting, who was there, what happened. I'm sure a domestic violence shelter may help by letting you borrow a security system.
Advocate for yourself trust me it will give you some sort of relief.
Medical condition/disability symptoms: Log in whether it be a notebook, video surveillance, pictures, notepad on your electronic device what the symptoms were at that time it comes up, describe the setting, describe what may help you such as a dim or dark room, over the counter medicine/ prescription from a medical doc., quiet, , etc. and hand over the log to your doc.
One step at a time.