So depressed it feels scary

[mentalhealthandme]

This year ive been having this terrible feeling of isolation, desolation, and deep sadness. It is a scary feeling and some nights i feel like i may have a panic attack or like im losing control. I want to run and scream for help but i cannot. I am stuck sat still and cant speak up. I have no support or anybody to open up to about these very personal things. Nobody would understand anyway. Even after being surrounded by people some days, i will have this feeling. Nothing external fills the void for long.

[Shield_Of_Faith]

I'm sorry to hear your struggles.I've been off and on lately with my own depression. If you need a friend I'm here. I'm not much or have all the answers. But I won't judge, I'll help anyway I can.

[CLB1125]

That is the truest definition of depression. Alone in a crowd. You are not alone. We here all feel the same way, I’m sure. You have a bunch of beautiful people here who understand and will listen. Has something happened lately that may have triggered your anxiety?

[mentalhealthandme in reply to CLB1125]

It's been going on for years but since being in my 20s it's gotten worse. I do have some things going on in my life that aren't helping it but I also know that the problem is my mental illness. I can elaborate more in a private message if that's okay.

[CLB1125 in reply to mentalhealthandme]

Absolutely

[Gillyflower18]

Welcome! Many of us have dealt with the very feelings you describe. There is always someone here to listen and support you in your struggles. Don't be afraid to post. We are scattered all around the world which means there is usually. someone up somewhere most times of the day. I've found it useful to read others posts because you feel less isolated and in sharing you can help someone else in their.dark times. Once again Welcome to our group.

[mentalhealthandme in reply to Gillyflower18]

Thankyou

[WriteMoveSpeak]

I’ve been there too— where I’m scared of my own brain and body, like I can’t trust it to keep me safe. Right now I’m in a better place. Something that has helped me is finding more community, this being one of the places. Bit by bit, talking to others who have felt similarly and learning how they manage, it gets easier. If you feel like running, my thought is either give in and take a jog or do the opposite and try to find deep rest. Maybe one then the other - tire yourself out with a run then lie down and do slow deep breaths. See how much control you do have over your body’s fight/flight and rest/and digest responses. I like guided meditations specifically yoga nidra to help me rest. Good luck and sending warm hugs or presence, whichever you prefer!

[LuigisMama]

You are not alone. I suffered from anxiety and depression my entire life. I don’t have anyone to talk to about it. Friends care but don’t want to hear how bad we feel. I am new to this site. You can talk to me. I got acupuncture several years ago and it really helped. I control my depression by exercising every day. Even if it is only a 10 minute walk. Being outdoors is soothing. I know when you’re depressed you can’t move, but I hope you will force yourself out the door. Please keep trying..you matter 🩷

[mentalhealthandme in reply to LuigisMama]

Thankyou. I think talking may help

[LuigisMama in reply to mentalhealthandme]

Please reach out.. I care about you, even though we will never meet. You can talk to me. I have been where you are and my heart goes out to you.

[Amysmom]

I know this feeling well you are not alone

[ClassicalBlueKitty]

I'm sorry to hear you feel this way. I don't want to try and "therapy talk" you, but it may be helpful to challenge some of these cognitive distortions. Your depression is lying to you, people will understand. All of us here understand and there are people to help and listen and support you. We don't have answers for you here but we do have support. When you feel like you don't have anyone to talk to you can come here, but you can also call a helpline. 1-800-662-HELP (4357) This is a good number to call if you need to talk to a person.