Waiting For September

[bxgirlmom]

….And not because my kids start school lol. But yes back to business for them and some mental relief for me. They’ve been home two and a half weeks since camp ended and I’ve done every activity/outdoor activity/outing known to man lol. I also start work next week. Excited, but anxious. I’ve been off the last six months and it affected my mental health greatly. So much respect for stay at home moms because it’s a lot; but being a working mom is a better fit for me. I don’t want to fall back into self-harm, low self-esteem, anxiety, or substance abuse again.

Making plans for the future me. Carving out times for myself. Going to resume acupuncture and other self care treatments. My nails look so bad lol. Just simple things to keep me on the straight and narrow. Holding my husband accountable by making him have more responsibilities. Reading. Journaling. Discovering new music. Anything I can. Things got dark for awhile there and I scared my loved ones and friends pretty bad. I love them and never want them to worry like that again. Especially my grandma.

Glad I found this forum and community! I’m actually reading a book I seen a commenter recommend to someone else, I went and ordered it lol.

Trying to end this year on a positive note, one day at a time.