The hell of luck is that? Am i the most unfortunate person on earth? Depression is normal. Is it the curse?

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Today was my cousins' baptism and sis woke up sick and started vomiting. I thought we could go and then she would go outside and i would chill home alone with the tv and ac and a nice videogame, yesterday i left a game because mom panicked me. I couldn't rest all night. I went to the baptism. I prayed , even told the priest about my parents (but forgot the shaman) and went to the restaurant with my uncle's family and some grandparents from his wife's side. It ached so much seeing these happy people, not giving a damn about me, giving big money to litteral toddlers who get paid more to do their homework than i would be paid if i get a job. On top of that these people joked about me becoming a waitress and joked about my half-sister drawing the walls of the place my therapist hyped me to go to and wasted one therapy hour and my money, nobody gives ME money, and he will be missing for two weeks. Moreover sis calls me and tells me i can stay outside, she called a friend. I really needed to go home and i left the table when they started joking. I hope they realised they hurt me but i doubt it. I needed to go home. My period was like 1 month late and finally came and i just want justice. Mom will come stressed as fck, drink, tell me how stressed she is and how she's alone, dad doesn't care. Fck you sibling of mine! If you dare attack me on that or put my post down, i swear...... My sister just vomited and i had to clean. Did you count how many problems i have?

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It can be really difficult to see others happy when we are down.It does make us so much stronger though, think of it as lifting weights for your brain. You're just going to be that much stronger long term. Short term is the rough part, but if you need community reach out here. Theirs lots of people who care and/or can relate.

Here's to hopefully having a better day!

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

Yeah. Just my brain got too much training and no rest