a complete disconnect

[Sugaree]

first I felt sick then my body feels like I am racing on the inside. My arthritic knees felt like jelly. Chronic pain slammed me down. Pain meds weren’t working, anxiety meds were not working and I spiraled down into myself. My wonderful husband of 39 years desperately tried to help me. I felt so alone. I have my husband but no one else. My grown kids have their own lives and families as it should be. I never want them to worry about me. What the F happens to me? I am on antidepressants and have had enough therapy to know it’s memory suppression of an awful childhood. I wish I could throw up all the memories and move on, but they return more often than I would like. Tomorrow I hope to be grounded in the present moment, with a little less pain. I am a bit afraid and very much alone.

[litethatnevergoesout]

you aren’t alone. especially with a caring husband.