I shouldn’t be ashamed of myself, but I slightly am

[97Bunny11]

today I had to go to my old workplace to pick up some meds for my brother. I didn’t want to go there until I was at a certain point in my life, but I’m clearly not there yet. I was a little embarrassed when my old boss an coworkers asked me how “work was going?” Or “How school went?” They meant well, especially since before I left, I told them that I would be going to school for graphic design. That didn’t happen due to financial reasons. I know it’s not my fault, but I still feel shameful when someone asks me how work is with good faith, and I have to dodge the question because I’m not working right now. I’m self-studying (and I think I’m finally ready to apply to jobs, thankfully) but it still feels kind of shameful.

I’m trying to combat this feeling by thinking of what I have accomplished so far, but I can’t help but fall into the same old “What are people thinking of me?” Mindset. Even though I know that these people probably don’t care or don’t think that way and just wish the best for me.

[litethatnevergoesout]

I know it’s hard, think of something positive. there’s nothing to be ashamed of. it doesn’t matter what people think of you what matters is what you think of you and you can do something about that.

[97Bunny11 in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

thank you ❤️ I needed that

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to 97Bunny11]

You’re welcome.