I can't seem to get out of this one

[97Bunny11]

I feel this ever-present gloom over me.

At the same time, I'm trying to put my faith into God more.

I feel a scary change happening in my life that I'm not sure I'm ready for

I'm really scared. But it could all be in my head

I feel like I haven't accomplished anything.

And I've been feeling this overwhelming self-hatred.

I made a list today of "Reasons why I'm happy to be alive," but a part of me wonders if I even deserve such happy things.

I want this to stop.

[cashew78]

You are allowed to be happy, and when you figure out how to be happy you're allowed to pursue that course. I find it very difficult to feel like I've accomplished anything because I was never taught what I do is ever enough. I hope this isn't the case for you. Don't put your faith in god more than you put faith in yourself. If you do the work (which you are doing!), you'll get to a better place. Life is scary, and you've gotten this far. I'm sure you can stare down anything scary life throws your way. You've got this

[GreyWolf001]

Hi. I noticed your post contains a few different topics.

One, to which I wanted to leave my comment, is this sentence: 'I feel a scary change happening in my life that I'm not sure I'm ready for'. We, humans, often feel afraid of changes. Everything that is not known and that we cannot control or predict, feels scary. Just know that it is very natural feeling and there is nothing wrong with feeling it. But also know, that changes are important in life. Without changes, there is no growth. For me, your sentence feels like something really nice is on your way right now. Do not take it as a new and heavy road but more like an adventure. Everything is possible, everything you have ever dreamed of. And if some things do not happen, so... there are plenty of things that will.

'I feel like I haven't accomplished anything. ' What are these life accomplishments you are looking for? Standing still in your life does not give you a chance to accomplish things. The change you mentioned earlier is your key, welcome it. Also, do not compare your accomplishments to other people's accomplishments. Those trophies are not what will make you happy. Do, what makes you happy and only then you can win a trophy that pleases you.

'And I've been feeling this overwhelming self-hatred.' Find your inner you. The little innocent and sweet girl you used to know. Big part of life is becoming the ones who we are at our core, and rejecting the ways society and companions have pressured on us. Do not hate what you are today. Much of it is not even you on your chore level but the patterns and results of your traumas and life experiences. Do not hate these either. Just know that you can do differently if you wish. You have always made the best choices you was able to make at the time, so forgive yourself. You are a beautiful human, you are kind and everything you wish to be. Find your way back to yourself!