I’m lost

My life still terrible. People say I should get therapy, psychiatrist, or many other mental health services but I’ve done them all and still nothing. If I ever pursue my dreams, it will end it immediately just because I can be honest with myself and others and I’m a terrible person. I can’t find myself nor can’t find “my people” because I’m not good at expressing who I am and I can’t find other people who doesn’t talk about politics 24/7 and making it their whole identity. The community I want to join and the industry I want to get in, has plenty of people who are just like that, which I don’t mind and I just mostly care about anyone who’s willing to share interest in art and animation. However I know if I join in, I might get outcast and labeled a bad person, which I believe I am. I have no support system, my parents don’t care about my issues and my sister call me how terrible I am because I don’t believe her political beliefs. I’m just a mess. I don’t see myself anything other than being a miserable person that no one cares about.

[Cookie2217]

Shynoir.....you are so young at only 22 and have your whole life ahead of you. When I was your age I also did not have a good relationship with my family or my sister at that time. I believe that the ages of 18 to 21 were the most difficult years of my life as I tried to kill myself three times however, I am 54 years old now and I made it through and I'm here to tell you that you will too. You have found your people here in this group you can tell us whatever you're feeling without fear of being judged ever. I also love art I painted for a bit in college and I really loved it and I hope to get back to doing that sometime soon again. I joined the group to get to know others that feel the same as I do and that suffer from depression, PTSD or adjustment disorder and have found people to be extremely nice here and very caring and giving here. If no one has ever told you this before you are enough you are worthy and you are fearfully and wonderfully made by God and He makes no mistakes. Please know that I am here for you with a sympathetic ear should you need to talk. Wishing you peace and well-being.

[blackcat64013 in reply to Cookie2217]

Hi Shynoir,Thank you for post which highlights how negative thinking affects our life.

Cookie has certainly covered most of what I would have said.

We have one artist who frequently posts here. Keep an eye out for Stippler's posts. Maybe you could show us some of your work?

I can recommend a book called "The Mindful Way Through Depression - Freeing yourself from chronic unhappiness".

Mark Williams is the lead author and there is a companion CD of guided meditation 🧘‍♀️. The meditation is also available as a free download if you purchase the book. I found my copy in the local library.

All the best in your search for your community of practice 🐈‍⬛

[kushami36]

I wanted to suggest that you look for “your people” in a different way – through art, biographies, films, interviews and novels. Maybe even some philosophy. You could try Alain de Botton’s book “The Consolations of Philosophy”.

You will find that other people are living all sorts of lives, now and in the past, in your country and round the world.

You can broaden your horizons and encounter people who think about and are passionate about all sorts of things without leaving your home or spending a lot of money.

(If you don’t enjoy reading, try audiobooks or biopics.)

There are lots of people in the world who feel they don’t fit in with their family or workmates. You are not sentenced to spending your days discussing (or being earbashed) about topics you aren’t interested in. You can travel through the mind’s eye.

On a different tack, how about enrolling in a short course in drawing at a local college or community centre. It will be a change of atmosphere and I hope the conversation will be pleasant and art related.