My Daily Life

[Excludite]

My daily life is full of panic attacks. I work from home and hardly ever leave my apartment. I have an autoimmune disorder and have turned into a worse germaphobic after the pandemic. Currently have no friends. I got my master’s degree two years ago and I’m doing nothing with it. I forgot everything! I struggle falling asleep because of the attacks and is the first thing I feel when I wake up. I live in utter sweaty fear.

[BlueAgave]

I hate that you're having so many panic attacks, but can relate. One thing is that exercise can really help. It would be beneficial if you could get outside and walk a bit, you don't have to be close to anyone. Wish there was more I could say to help. Just one day at a time. 🫂

[Excludite in reply to BlueAgave]

I have to walk my dog twice a day and it’s a burden. My body aches. I drag myself every time. I can’t even play with her as much as she’d like and I feel guilty. I live in AZ and long walks are about to be impossible. Other than that I’m home on the couch or in bed. Thank you.

[catsrock]

I'm sorry, that sounds so difficult. Glad you are here as this is a great community.

[Junkjournal1]

so sorry to hear that you’re feeling this way I can relate to you it’s the worst feeling ever I know. Do you have any hobbies that you could do I’m sure you don’t feel like it as it’s probable that you’ve lost interest in things. But if you could try to absorb yourself into something and stay focused on it it can often help to give your mind a bit of time out of these awful feelings. Thinking of you you’re not alone.

[Excludite in reply to Junkjournal1]

Thank you dear. I try to sleep every chance I get. I’m always exhausted. I don’t have a particular hobby and I did lose interest in everything. I appreciate you trying to help.

[punkster]

I'm sorry to hear about your panic attacks. I have general anxiety, but no panic attacks. I can relate to your germaphobia after the pandemic. I wore a mask every time I went out for the longest time. I still mask up if I'm in a large crowd, or at my job when I'm in close proximity to kids. However, I have stopped wearing a mask all the time. I wash my hands when I come in from the public, before I play the piano, before I eat and after I go to the bathroom. I spent the longest time afraid that I was going to get sick. However, I have convinced myself that sickness is part of life, that I have been sick before, and that I will get sick in the future. I can't ruin my life with being obsessed with illness. When I start feeling anxious I get busy, either physically or mentally and the anxiety eventually goes away.

[Excludite in reply to punkster]

Appreciate your thoughts. Sickness is harder for me due to my autoimmune disorder. I could be hospitalized and then no one is around to take care of my dog whom I wash in the sink after every walk. My illness causes severe fatigue and my panic attacks are exhausting. I have no energy to even think straight. Thank you for sharing.