Have had attention defficit disorder ( combination type ) and generalized anxiety disorder since childhood. Started having severe pannic attacks at age 26. Anxiety and pannic attacks. Took my wife and children from me. As well as my ability to maintain employment. I have worked hard . To get certified in several different carrear paths. But Everytime. I end up leaving work due to a nasty pannic attacks and get fired. Thank God my wife still loves me. We are back together. And I am trying to get myself together. So I can provide for my family. I have done the iop program. For mental health 8 times. Works great until I am finished with the program. Then it ends up coming back and disrupting my ability to live a normal life. Theorpy has helped coping skills make having less severe pannic attacks. So I'm not in the er everyother day fully convinced im dying. Been taking benzos for over 9 years they stop me from having pannic attacks. But the anxiety non stop every day and night never goes away. So I moved back to the area. And have about 4 weeks until my new mental health provider can see me. Been almost 3 weeks since I ran out of my medication. And it's not fun. 2 or more pannic attacks every day. Hardly sleeping. Spend all day on the edge of a pannic attack. The worst thing is constantly apologizing to my wife. Thinking my anxiety is making her angry. And I know she can't understand it . No one can really understand how exhausting it is. Best way I can describe it is suffering. I am currently looking for anxiety pannic support groups in the area. As I believe they would be beneficial. My add has it's own fun affects on relationships as well. Such as the inability to pick up on social ques. Not understanding when someone is joking or mad. Forgetting everything. Loosing things constantly. Being very interested in hobbies and education. To the point of excelling, obtaining many different certifications. From comptia it certifications
Being a xda recognised Android developer. A comercial/industrial electrician, And a water damage Restoration. Technician / project manager / estimator. Been a year since I received my comptia cert. But have not utalized it. Have not had an it job. So that's me . And I'm sure there are some of you with similar stories.